It's unnatural to be back. I am not myself, back here. I was gone for 3 days and they were glorious. I am feeling most un-glorious now. I was a part of something very special. But I don't feel a part of anything OR very special now. Why do I feel like I have lost something, here...when I felt I had found so much, there? I must be coming down from an emotional, spiritual high. I am back in the real world and can't find my way. I feel like I need to be rescued, but I don't know what is pursuing me.
When I was 16, I was rescued...saved by God's grace and His only Son's shed blood on Calvary. I saw a movie, "For Pete's Sake", and was read the 'Romans Road' by a college student at the movie exit, by flashlight. I recently found that movie on the Billy Graham website, Grayson. I ordered it and watched it and, although it was dated and somewhat corny, the message was the same and I cried like I did when I was 16 years old, accepting the Lord. I am back in the real world.
My job now is to bring the retreat into my real world...not retreat from my real world. I must remember my salvation. I was saved for a purpose. God was pursuing me. I must daily die to self and take up the cross. I must always be prepared for battle because the closer I get to God, the more threatening I am. "Get thee behind me, satan!"
